its crazy, human nature really fucks you good no matter what

i payed all my bills this week and went and finally got my fucking license ( i was tired of driving illegally) and these are all BIG steps compared to where i was only a week or a month ago, i have a girlfriend i REALLY REALLY REALLY care about who makes me feel happiness in ways ive never felt before and yet my anxiety over where i am in life is still overwhelmingly crippling. I wish i was able to take pride and relief in accomplishments because when i think rationally about it, there is very little to feel poorly about. Im not really sure why i cant just over come it but i surely refuse to stoop back down to taking meds for it (it just isnt for me, no shame to those who need it). there is no point to this rambling run on sentence and poorly organized mass of thoughts i just wanted to document it in hopes i would find temporary relief, it seems to semi be working so i suppose mission accomplished. Thats my rare but super informative update on my life, thanks tumblr you are always here when i have no where else to turn. now back to parks and rec and eating unhealthy.

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tearyplant:

artsy

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stabilised:

aesthetic blog

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sharkvoid:

hey no offense but [just starts screaming]

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Yet again, this will ultimately end badly for me :) grrreat

trefoiled:

Accretion, Olivier

Kill me at any speed you desire just kill me

Nine is god
Nine will come
Nine to breath inside your Lungs

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This was long overdue, overcoming hardships, dealing with loss and grief, making a promise to myself to change and make a better future for myself. This is a monument to my sadness and anxiety, its a promise that I will do better